Tuesday, December 25, 2007

That Xmas Spirit

Have you ever been to a mall lately and experienced the most chaotic scene there is in the entire planet? Ok I may be exaggerating. But hey, this year, I felt that thing they call “xmas rush” in all and every aspect.

It started two weeks ago, when a friend of mine asked me to go and visit a bazaar. A few hours in the area got me dizzy as hell with the number of shoppers in attendance, making their way to each and every stall to find that perfect Christmas present for their loved ones.

I know by now, you must’ve been dying to tell me that I should’ve started shopping for gifts earlier than usual but you see, with the schedule I’ve had the past couple of months, things have been pretty tight really. A lame excuse. Truth is, this is partly correct but it’s more of this year, I am not really feeling the Christmas spirit that early. Kaya hindi rin ako nag-shop ng maaga. Hahaha.

Yesterday, 2 days before Christmas, with my unfinished list of Christmas gifts to be bought and sent to my God-children and some friends, I braved going once again to the mall. This time I was soooo damn eager to get it all done and over with. Kung hindi ngayon kalian pa right? Baka abutan na ako ng Chinese New Year! Hahaha.

As expected, the place was packed. Mag expect pa ba ako ng walang tao right? But then, I’m known for being a mall rat – or at least that’s what most people think of me so I try to live up to that expectation – so hindi ako magpapa-apekto sa mga tao. I leisurely walked around, going from shops to shops doing some window shopping for myself, baka kasi may ma-miss akong stuff. Haha. And then I got to this one place where the entire mall population has been staying all these time – the toy store.

To say that they were a lot of people will be the understatement of the year! And boy I am in for a treat! Between parents trying to get their kid to decide on which toy to get, between the cries of those who can’t seem to get what they want, between some adults who can’t seem to get enough of baby stuffs - in the midst of this chaotic scene, I felt sooo alone. Yes, this is perhaps the most ironic thing that ever happened to me so far. Being in a place full of people and yet feeling so alone and lonely at that. And as I try to regain my composure and get back to my shopping list – I felt unsuccessful so I just grabbed the most convenient things I can and headed out to the cashier and left (Sorry – effort na effort ang gifts ko).

And today, on the eve of Christmas as I try to wrap them all in the most neat way I can, I couldn’t help but wonder, how many Christmases have I wished for something that didn’t come? Has Santa once again, forgot me and passed by my place without stopping? That Biatch! Sana hindi kami magkita sa New Year’s Ball, kung hindi, I’ll really throw a Martini (extra dirty) on his face ala Cherrie Gil! Bwahaha.


Before you think of nasty thoughts why Santa didn't drop by - Let us establish the fact that I have been good this year, by my standards! Hahaha.

Happy Christmas everyone! May yours be better than mine, sana nag stop sa inyo si Santa. Hahaha. =P

Sunday, December 23, 2007

I Think I Can Dance

Recently I got hooked on this new channel on cable called VELVET. A few days ago, I caught something that realllllllyyyyyy impressed me. And I mean REALLY. Affected ako! Got goosebumps after watching them perform.

I was watching the show "So You Think You Can Dance" and just couldn't stop gushing about these performances. I never really thought that one can tell a story through dance - akala ko sa song lang siya nangyayari. Well, there goes my artistic sense!

I've been dancing since I was a kid and been joining some classes over at the gym, so I really think I can dance. But the moment I saw these guys perform, nahiya ako. I can't dance pala. Hahaha.

So can they dance? Hell yeah!!!!!

choreograph by Mia Michaels
(notice how she managed to make the dancers go back to their first position at end of the choreo. Galing! I love it!)

And what can you expect from a Wade Robson choreography? Perfection. I'm soo dying to learn this one. Hahaha.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

The Train Wreck

a sort of SOCO-ish type of investigation....

December 19.

A train got derailed and killed a number of people in Pakistan - such a bad news!

Ironically something of the same nature - but less serious - happened in Manila, involving trains.

Another train wreck was reported to have occurred during the Accenture party held at the SMX center.

Train Wreck @ SMX, Dec 19, Manila.

Nung una, walang gustong umamin - later on, out of the godness of their hearts - or conscience, people started to claim that they hold responsible for this poor sight.

But for the sake of everybody - para sa ikatatahimik ng lahat. I decided to investigate this further to get to the bottom of things. Pin down the suspects. Parang SOCO. =P


Sila ba??????

Or baka nman sila??? Sa kaka-pose nila ng 300..

Sa aming pagsisiyasat, isa lang ang napatunayan namin. Clearly, walang lihim na hindi nabubunyag. Kaya para sa ikatatahimik ng lahat, sino nga ba ang sumira sa mahiwagang train set???????? - I personally got the clasified document na makapagpapatunay kung sino ang mga salarin.

Ganda ng pic!


It's bad enough when people are made aware that you did something bad - what's worse is when they actually got it on tape or in our case, on camera for the whole Accenture people to see!!!!!! Hahaha.. Buking! =P

Saturday, December 15, 2007

The Angels are Back

Yes, the angels are back to make all our lives better. Hahaha.

This is perhaps one of the most anticipated fashion shows in the world - mejo well attended din..

Think Karolina, Adriana, Selita, Alessandra and Heidi = Victoria's Secret Angels!

It's just not the same without Giselle don't you think?

Trivia: Do you know that the country has one of the biggest VS factory in the world?? AMZAING isn't it? Hehe. =P

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

The Best Day So Far

According to my dad, you can only get lucky three times in one lifetime. I dunno where he got this mantra – perhaps on one of those Chinese horror stories? Haha. Somehow I grew up having this idea that luck will indeed smile at you thrice. But he never did mention that it can all happen in one freakin’ day – all three chances, perhaps even more. And I mean that with all sarcasm.

Today, December 11, 2007, I woke up with a huge mosquito bite on my left cheek. Taking things in
stride, I tried to dismiss the idea that it is in fact obvious since I am just about to take a really cold shower. Cold minus sore minus redness equals beautiful skin. About 40 minutes later, I proved myself wrong. It was ever red-er than usual. But hey, no sweat, I said. A good zit is no match to a good concealer – e ano pa ang mosquito bite? Maning mani! And so, I did what perhaps most 'sane' people would do. Don't sweat small stuff. Conceal.

As I walked out of the house, I noticed that the sun is somehow trying to come out. We’ve all been experiencing a few rain showers over the past couple of days so feeling the sun’s rays over my moisturized skin is a welcomed opportunity. I then hopped in a very spacious train ride. Walang masyadog tao sa LRT. HIMALA! It seemed like lahat ng mga ka-train-pool ko e nag-connive to avoid that particular hour in the morning. I simply loved it!

Gil Puyat. My station. Normally, this place spells CHAOS at this time of the day, sa dami ba naman ng taong papasok sa Makati Business District. I was reeeeeaaaalllllyyy surprised to see a bus waiting for people nearby – kasi madalas, malayo nilalakad ko, may mga pseudo MMDA kasi. But today, wala. Kasama ata sila sa connivance nung mga train-pool ko. Maluwag ang bus – uhm yeah, that’s what I kept telling myself, until I realized that all seats were actually taken, just when I got in at ako na yung uupo. First one to be on standing position – ok lang, no big deal really! Small stuff right? And then I saw a reflection of my face on one of its window. Yan ang naging big deal! Remember the concealing part I mentioned? I didn’t work. In fact, the opposite thing happened. One word: Irritation. Whatever happened to the word hypo-allergenic? What are the odds that I will be part of the 1% - READ: ONE PERCENT – instead of the 99% guaranteed na ito ay hypo-allergenic!#@$

And it doesn’t stop there. As soon as I got in the office, I realized that I left my phone at home. Just when I have a very important call scheduled. So to make up for it, I decided to drop by someone’s office and bring the documents myself, only to be told that he is out for the day. Ok lang, mag-w-withdraw na lang ako! BDO here I come. I tried. I tried to get my money out of that plastic card but it just wouldn’t let me. Wrong PIN? WTF!#@%$#

So I took the signs very well. Today is perhaps not my lucky day. I should’ve consulted the newspaper baka nasasaad sa horoscope ko yan. For the rest of the day, I tried to be extra careful. I walked slowly than usual, avoided bringing mugs with liquids, and practically stayed on the safe side. On my way home, mejo nakahinga na ako ng maluwang. Except for the fact that the bus I took on my way home e maraming ipis - the small ones crawling on the windows - too bad I as seated sa window side!!!!!! Freak out mode talaga. Ipis is synonymous to panic for me. After a series of really unfortunate events, I was just glad na pauwi na ako. Tapos na, uhm yeah almost. Until I realized na lumampas na ako ng station ko!!!!!!! Hindi ako nakababa….. Bwiset!

Now, I am surrounded by a lot of pillows in case may mahulog or lumipad or what. I am soooooooooooooooooooo glad na tapos na tong yugto ng buhay kong ito. Tomorrow, is a new day. Thank God for that!!!!!


Luck perhaps is on day off! Hahahahaha..

Thursday, December 06, 2007

The Heart of the Matter

After sometime, you do have to face the ghost you’ve been trying to avoid or in my case, the ghost that I have created myself.

A few days ago, somebody asked me, “Are you really leaving Manila on December 18? Tuloy na tuloy na ba flight mo?” I wanted to answer that right then and there, but hey, the better of me wanted to know how he’d handle it – how he’d react. So I just gave him a simple pa-cute smile and shrugged it off. Hehehe. *evil grin*

Earlier today, I was asked the very same question and this time, I willingly answered – afterall, ibang tao na yung nagtanong e. Haha.

“Ayan ka na naman e. You just can’t let everything pass you by” she said.

This is what she told me, after hearing that I did not take the Emirates job. Yes. Tama. I am not moving afterall. The decision was never easy, coming from a long vacation – I’ve clearly weighed my options right and I think I made the right choice. I was certain, then. But now, after hearing her point, it got me thinking – could it be that she’s right? Am I really letting opportunities pass me by without realizing it?

At a certain age, we all would want to end up with a career that’s more fulfilling. A relationship that will last – even longer than you previous one. We all get to a point where you don’t want to simply try. You want to be sure. Precise. Steady. Or maybe, that is just me and my perfectionist disorder. Hahaha.

Everything is not ideal. I know that for a fact. I did not dream to become a ticket auditor slash QA tester when I was a kid. Nor did I dream of having my heart broken once, twice or even three times. That is why in every choice we make there is a risk involved. But there’s one thing I am most certain. I like my steaks well done. If I choose to do something or be with someone, I don’t like to hold anything back. Because, for me, anything half baked is such a waste of time.

When you go for something or someone that is a little less than what you want or hoped for, does mean you’ve lowered your standards and settled? Or are you just being realistic? – ahhhh thoughts, they're killing me.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Ang LOBO bow!

Some friends of mine were talking about a certain story over breakfast. The topic was about "Lobo" which happens to be the title of papa Piolo's next TV series. I never got to see that much TV lately for some very odd reason, uhm well, hindi nman talaga ako mahilig manuod ng TV in the first place - unless there's something interesting. Hahahaha. And so my eager self listened, afterall, it was about Piolo, nothing beats that.

Halfway through the story, I got bothered. I just couldn't get it. The plot, the story, and most of all, the twist. For some reason, hindi ko sila ma-connect sa isa't isa. Until somebody blurted "tumatakbo yung lobo tapos binaril siya ni Piolo". This one, hindi ko na kinaya, so I bravely asked - "teka, you mean lumipad right? pano tumakbo yung lobo? Isn't it supposed to fly?". Only to find out that LOBO is the tagalog word pala for fox. Hahaha. All those time, I thought we were all talking about lobo, as in the balloon. Buti hindi ko tinanong kung anong color. Tanga ko! So for the next two minutes, I laughed my heart out of pure humiliation..

and FYI - I died! Hahahaha..

I asked around some other friends if they are aware that LOBO is a fox. Turns out, everyone knows that. Damn! Even my sister laughed at me for that! Kaasar. So if there's someone out there who's just as clueless as me on this "lobo" thing - please - we need to join forces! hahahahaha..

Looks promising.. Can't wait to see it...

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Ang Pagbabalik

I never...... said... that I'm hungry.... Acheche....

You know the lines...

Well, this is by far the only teleserye that kept me up so late to watch (bukod kay Kokey! Hahahahahaha... kidding).

It's kinda nice that they are back. Can't wait to see it.. I lllluuurrrrvvvvv Anne Curtis here!!

Desire. Betrayal. Compassion. Despair. Obsession. Fear. Hope Greed. Vengeance. Power.

The Birthday Bash

Exactly two weeks ago, I remember feeling anxious as I see my name appear on our group’s calendar for the very first time.

Date: November 16

Event: Vinson’s Birthday Bash

Well it’s not like the announcement is something unpleasant or anything, it’s just that I realized, that I am about to throw a party in celebration of my 23rd birthday! (ang mag-react mababaog! I’m telling you). Dumbidumbidumbidum…

This is actually the first time that I’ll be doing this – celebrate. I am so used to just let the day pass without any fuss. Well, hindi nman sa makunat ako. Haha. It’s just that for the past couple of years, I got so used to people asking me out because it is my birthday. Kailangan lumabas. Minsan, it has become more of an obligation then, than a celebration. Haha. I would like to say that it is just a joke pero sasabihin niyo that jokes are half meant. Kaya wag na lang. =P

The thing is I am not comfortable with the idea, I don’t really celebrate birthdays. In fact, there was even a point in time when I began to hate it. For me, it is just a day – like any ordinary day where people simply do their normal routines and go on with life. Why do I have to make such a big deal about it? Besides, tatanda na naman ako! Don’t you feel that at a certain age, you simply want the numbers to stop accumulating, permanently! Hahaha.

But this year, things have changed hence, the birthday bash.

I remember feeling all too excited about it. For some reason, I was really looking forward to it. This time, I decided to take matters into my own hands. I sent the invitations, prepared some treats and made sure everyone was in the loop. I am not going to wait for anyone to tease me para mag treat - I am in charge. This year, I am going to celebrate! For a change. For real.

November 16 came. And as I wait for our table to be ready, I began to wonder. What am I exactly celebrating here? Yes it is my birthday, but then again, there’s got to be some reason more than just the day being my natal day. Kailangan may reasons to celebrate. Before I knew it, my friends arrived and we started talking the night away. Midway through the dinner, I still couldn’t get the question out of my mind. And then it dawn to me, as we began to pass around dessert. The reason I was looking for is actually right in front of me. All 10 of them. This year, I celebrated friendship. Years of real and honest friendship! Yung mga kasama kong lumaki - kahit yung iba hindi lumaki tlga. The people who've always been there for me after all these freakin' years. That's just reason enough for me to celebrate! And now, days after my birthday, allow me to thank each and everyone of you for that. To everyone who remembered. Sa mga nag IM, nag text, nag message here, sa friendster, sa blogspot, sa email, sa mga tumawag from here and abroad (esp!), sa mga nakaalala in general. Salamat! Salamat! And Suuuuppppperrrr Salamat! You never know how happy I am because of you guys!

I’d love to share to you what I wished for, pero masadong mahaba yon. Hahahaha. Kaya here’s something that somehow sums it all up. Wishes… Wishes… Stay happy everyone!!!

I’d love to share to you what I wished for, pero masadong mahaba yon. Hahahaha. Kaya here’s something that somehow sums it all up. Wishes… Wishes… Stay happy everyone!!!

To listen to stars and birds, to babes and sages, with an open heart;
To appreciate beauty;
To seek elegance rather than luxury;
To live content with small means;
To study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To bear all cheerfully, do all bravely, never in a hurry;
To find the best in others;
To give of oneself without the slightest thought of return;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a rescued soul, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition;
To play with enthusiasm and sing with exaltation;
To laugh often and much;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived

-- I think this is an Emerson piece...

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

A New Light in an Old Mindset

“Dati, pag ganitong araw at oras ng gabi, tuwang tuwa na kami. Kasi sisindihan na yung petromax sa bahay!!! Maliwanag na maliwanag ang bahay at daanan, tapos sabay kami ng mama mo na nag-iigib ng tubig para gagamitin sa paghahanda sa fiesta” This is how my second cousin slash aunt slash whatever Catalina started to recount her story as we walk along the streets of Boljoon, on the eve of the town’s fiesta. It was a busy night for everyone, including me, as I began to embark on a journey of enlightenment, of purpose, of experiencing probably one of the turning points in my life.

I never really wanted to go out of the room and mingle some more. Mainit sa labas, madaming tao, magulo, walang marunong mag tagalong, etcetera. I tried to give all the excuses I could ever think of. Truth is, I’ve been in the place for four days now and the piercing look I get everywhere I go is becoming more and more annoying everyday. Being the new kid in town, I know one just couldn’t help but get the same treatment yet somehow I still felt a little awkward then. It feels like I’m walking naked on the street without me knowing it and that alone makes me want to simply stay in the room. But on that particular day, I obliged myself to actually go out and experience the so-called “buhay probinsya”.

We started touring the place. Got to see the sights, taste some delicacies and local dishes. Eventually, I got to know some people which was quite a challenge then, given the language barrier. Soon enough, I get to be introduced and experience their kind of life. Filling the ‘banga’ with water. Going out of the house to use the unusual toilet. Feeding the chickens and even played with two pigs and a dog. And later on, I get to appreciate the scenery, the fresh air, the bahay kubo, and the people – how they tried to answer all of my silly questions – with effort!

At dinner, I couldn’t help but ask Lyn (c Ate Catalina to, mas posh lang pag Lyn, and I call her that), ganito ba talaga ang buhay dito? Napaka-simple. Lahat ng bagay nakukuha sa backyard. Masaya nman kayo? I tried to be subtle so as not to sound too offensive or plain obnoxious. But in reality, all I wanted to ask her was how come they managed to live their lives like this, when there are gazillion things out there to aspire for. Like having a plasma TV perhaps? Or kahit hindi na plasma, kahit TV na lang alone. I was wondering how come they’ve stayed with this old lifestyle when the whole world is turning global.

She answered me by telling more stories of how they have managed from day to day. How life unfolds for them in this side of the world. And all these time, I was left in awe. The girl is simply and genuinely happy with what she’s been doing. With how her life turned out so far. For her, that defines success. I was both surprised and a little embarrassed for even asking her that. But then again, she presented me a very valuable lesson.

In life, how do you define success? Is it by number of cars parked in your garage? Is it by the figures you earn? By position you hold? By the phone you are using? Or by the shoes you are wearing? I used to see people who wear a nice suit paired with great shoes, a fab watch, and who rides a posh car with chauffer – simply successful. Yes, I am that specific. But now, that is just plain shallow bordering stupid. With the recent experiences I’ve had, I now define success as having an integrated life. You see, the people I've met recently doesn't necessarily have everything. They don't have the wealth, the material things, the money and the mob (nyeks!). They were just simply happy people who have learned to live within their means and was able to achieve a balance between their personal and 'professional' life. Afterall, success outside the family cannot compensate the failure inside. There should be a great deal of balance in all aspects of one’s life in order for him to be called successful. The measure of success varies and can be very specific for some. We all have our own definition, depending on your level of emotional and intellectual development. And for me, to accomplish everything I’ve ever hoped for and leave this world better than I found it – would be the ultimate measure and definition of success.

Turns out, I did enjoy buhay probinsya!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

NO B DEAL!@#@!

This is definitely one of those times when they say na minsan, mapagbiro ang tadhana...

I've always been a fan of Beyonce, even way back her Destiny's Child days. So when news came out that she'll be coming all the way down here to perform, I was ecstatic! I mean, really ecstatic!!!!

But to my surpise, she'll be staging the concert in the middle of the week (Nov 7 - Wednesday) at the time when I will not be in Manila. Ggrrr. So I thought, perhaps I can cut my trip short and be back home in time for the concert, only to find out that my itinerary's full and I just can't find an open flight back.

So I said, ok lang. Besides, mahal masyado ang ticket. I mean, P 5500 is quite expensive - considering that it will be staged in an open field. I tried to remember the same experience when I watched Mariah "lipsynch" at The Fort, and wished I didn't shell out that much dough and just parked somewhere (MC Depot.. hehe..) since I can't even get a glimpse of her neither.

Mejo ok na sana. Until I got this email from the office - "Accenture employees get to see Beyonce Live at a Special Discount rate". Geez, they are selling the tickets at 60% off. Ayos di ba? Gggrrr...

This has only made me realize that NO, hindi mapagbiro ang tadhana like what most people say. Mapang-asar siya! Ever! waaaahhhh... I think I'm gonna die.....

This is why I love her.. HOT! HOT!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Must See Movie

When love ends....
How long should you hold on?
How soon should you let go?
How do you move on?

For anyone who has ever loved and lost.....

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Shifting Gears

Today, I was greeted early with an expected surprise. “Expected” because at some point, I knew it was coming and yet it still is very much a “surprise” since I didn’t really know when it is going to happen.

“Please report on Monday, October 22……..”

The message was simple, very specific and direct to the point. And yet after reading, it still left me with even more questions, made me weary with second thoughts and has made me doubt if this is really something that I want.

A year ago, I started this hunt for a better opportunity. I’ve sent out my applications to almost every possible company that I thought I’d like and have made quite a number of interviews as well. Back then, my reason was simple, I simply wanted to run away from something, from someone, from somewhere and start my career all over again. I wanted to change my life so fast that I thought changing job would do it in an instant.

There is a time when changing your career is just the right thing to do and the timing is just perfect. But back then I realized that it was not. Soon, I find myself backing out from interviews, turning down job offers and even had to talk myself out in an ongoing interview after realizing that this is not what I want. So I stopped the hunt, and started taking things in stride. Soon, I find myself enjoying exactly where I am at and the people around me. And for the very first time, in my career, I was actually happy! And I am saying this with all honesty.

If you’ve read my previous entry – this is directly related to lucky number 43. Yes, I got lucky. And now it is really happening.

Today, I received the good news and the feeling is all too different. Now, I didn’t have to move to get away from anything. I don’t have a really bad reason to leave and work elsewhere. No dramas, no ill-feelings, not even a single worry. Everything seems to work fine with me now. Does this mean that I am making the right choice if I decide to go?

Reading through the message I got early this morning, I couldn’t help but feel weird. I did not in any way set out to look for a job for quite sometime now and yet, this somehow has made its way to me. I am both anxious and scared. I am confused. So many things have been going through my head and it feels like I’m running in a treadmill for hours. I am torn between so many things. I am torn between wanting it for real and wanting it for the very reason that so many people wanted it. I am torn between my mother’s approval and my father’s objection. I am torn between making the right decision – if only I know which one to choose.

Nothing is certain, but one thing I know is for sure, I am in dire need of divine intervention right now.

Monday, October 08, 2007

A Tale of the Opposites

Again, I went on a blog holiday for a couple of weeks in lieu of my very busy schedule. Artistahin no? Hahaha. But seriously, I’ve been very busy lately with both career and personal matters and it seems like my body is taking its toll on me now. To be honest, ang dami kong gustong isulat but I just don’t have the courage and the stamina to get my mind going for so long.

A lot of things have happened in the course of three freakin’ weeks. May nagbalik-bayan. Dumagdag ang trabaho. May nag-text ulit after going AWOL for almost three months. May nawalan ng cellphone at may nagpanggap na nawalan ng cellphone. Hahaha. Kung mababasa niyo to (to all bitches/Divas, kurimaws at nagpapanggap na jologs), hanapin niyo kung saan kayo belong – basta alam nating lahat na akin yung isa jan! Sssssshhhhhh… Walang bukingan.

A few days ago, I got a text message from an old friend B who went living under a rock for about three months (gotcha!). B is your regular 30-something commitment phobe guy who just can’t seem to get enough of first and second dates – yes! You read it right. Even if he’s just a few years shy of life – the beginning of it! Dan-dan-dandan… Sounds disaster right? But not really (this is me being a friend!). B’s been through a lot in the relationship arena so to say that him being a commitment phobe is simply an excuse to be legally promiscuous, is a very unfair and unwitting conclusion. And jan kami magkaiba, hindi ako commitment phobe like what someone thinks, oo ikaw yon! Hehehe. =P

I am not a psychologist/psychiatrist by profession (in fact I hate them! Go figure! Haha). But over the past couple of years, this guy’s been coming to me for sessions over a cup of coffee or a bucket of San Mig Light. Sabi niya, I am the sanest person pagdating daw sa matters of the heart – he said this after a few bottles of Red Horse Extra Strong Beer and yes, ito ang tama! That’s why we shifted to San Mig Light after that. He met this new specie. Been going out with this creature of the Earth for over four glorious months now and everything is perfect. So perfect that it makes him freak out, panic and hallucinate.

I call this the four-month cycle. Hahahaha. Lagi naman e. You’ve had commitment phobe hommies don’t you? Minsan the cycle is way shorter than four months. Pero in his case, four months tlga. Ggrrr. This has been a recurring problem of his and I thought that it was about time to put an end to it all. Mind you, malaya ako now. Hindi ako pumatay ok?? May sakit lang ako kaya wala ako sa scene… Siya may four-month cycle ako daw may four year cycle.. hmmmm.... makes me wonder...

I am not really fond of giving pieces of advice to people especially in this particular area – yung sarili ko ngang lovelife hindi ko maayos, makialam pa ba ako? But since he begged, I obliged myself to do so. Hihihi. So here’s a part of my findings, hopefully, it will help others who are also in the same field as B.

We live in a world of uncertainties. We run in circles in search of something that we haven’t tried before. Bottomline, we all want to be happy. And if you happen to find that special someone who does make you feel like you’re the luckiest bitch on Earth, go ahead, FALL! And if it hurts, well, in the end it will probably be worth it. When somebody tells you that he/she will love you forever, don’t ever doubt that he/she will love you. It’s the FOREVER part that you should not believe. Because even if we want have that fairy tale-like romance of happy endings and glass slippers, we all know that there is no such thing as that. Forever is as long as it lasts. Mejo bitter pero aminin na natin.

We all have hurt before, we all have our share of disappointments and heartaches and we all lived through it. All we have to do is to keep an open mind. Sabi nga ni Migs of MGG – the opposite of love is not hate but INDIFFERENCE and the opposite of happiness is not sadness but FEAR. Don’t deny yourself of the opportunity to be loved by somebody else at present because of your past. Let it be a lesson for you to actually live your life at present and build an even happier existence in the future, hopefully, together.

I know. Easier said than done. Ibalik mo na lang sa akin pagdating ng panahon. Hahaha.
Oi, bayad mo!!!!! =P

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Song of the Moment

I am officially a Sugarfree fan! Hahaha. They really make the best music among the bands here in the country. And mind you, original ah.. Hindi puro revival lang..

It's such a refreshing thing to hear a new song that does not only sound nice, yung may content din! Hahaha. I am currently loving this new Sugarfree song. I think this is their best song ever, bukod sa "Prom". Hahaha.


Saturday, September 22, 2007

Saints and Sinners

For the past couple of weeks, something weird happened. Hmmm, maybe not weird, but something different. I have been going to church regularly. Ta-dah!!!! I attended a mass on a Sunday. I braved the crowd and went to Baclaran for the past three consecutive Wednesdays with a friend and to top it off, I went to Saint Jude Church and got all wet of Holy Water one Thursday last week. Cool huh!@!

You see, I am not much of a church-goer for quite sometime, count years! But I do go to church whenever I feel like it. Whenever I feel like asking for some divine intervention, whenever I feel like blessings were poured upon me and wanted to say thank you, or simply whenever I wanted to be really alone.

Recent experiences have been very enlightening to me. As I went to these churches, I’ve come to realize how much people prayed for their intentions and what they are all willing to do to make it realized. I was sooooo amazed at how determined some people are at Saint Jude to have their pens and papers blessed by the priest. I get so overwhelmed whenever I see people down on their knees, walking from the door of Baclaran church while holding their rosary and novena booklets. These two saints have been very popular to most Filipinos for being helpful to the needy and the hopeless.

A few days ago, a friend of mine told me some success stories on how these Saints have worked their magic on some people. Here in the Manila, you go to Saint Jude on Thursdays – the patron saint of the hopeless, if you are in dire need of something to happen. You go to Baclaran on Wednesdays and say your prayers to the Mother of Perpetual help if you basically need help on something. You visit the Sto. Nino statue stationed at the door, knock three times and make a wish.

So many Saints to go to for different intentions. Somehow, it makes me wonder if we have almost all saints for everything, why do bad things still happen to people? God wants the best for all of us. But then again, we are free. And part of that freedom is that we are allowed to make choices on how we want to live our lives, whether wisely or not. God allows us to make the wrong choices because otherwise, we will not be truly free. After all, He never promised us a life free from troubles, He only promised us that He’ll be there for us, whenever we need Him.

May all of our prayers be answered. Have a Blessed day!

Monday, September 17, 2007

One Fine Day

Have you ever
had a great day recently? I have. Uhm, yeah, I did.

My weekend ended
up with me getting a really bad cold. And when I say bad, I mean nasty. I’ve been sneezing all over the place non-stop. Hahaha. So I did what most sick people do (well, not most siguro), I shopped. Hehehe. Well, that is just my way of relaxing my body and mind to get rid of that unwanted cold. Walang pakialamanan.

Today, Monday. I woke up feeling enegized. Surprisngly, my therapeutic yet non-traditional way of coping with colds was quite effective. That’s when I realized, today is going to be a really lovely day for me! I prepped myself for work, did the usual daily routines and headed out the door. The gloomy weather did not in any way alter my mood. I still feel the energy. Damang dama ko. Today is going to be a lovely day!

As I was walking I suddenly saw an armor of people at the station. As I began to move closer, I realized that people were not moving and the lines simply get longer. A few more steps and then I heard the news… “Walang LRT today”… Will resume after an hour… Wait, a freakin’ hour??? Now I find myself trying to haila cab, but to no avail. Maraming na-stranded obviously and we were all trying to get to work on time, agawan na lang sa taxi!!!! Still, it did not alter my mood. I was not in any panic mode, I was chillin’. Hahaha. Seriously.

And then in the midst of the chaos of people trying to get a ride to work, a guy approached me. He asked if I am going to Gil Puyat – to which I replied yes. Then I find myself being led to this Blue Mitsubishi Adventure – aba, swerte nga naman. Sa dami ng tao, ako pa nilapitan ni manong. He is such a blessing. When I got there, I heard people sigh. There were already nine passengers, ako na lang yung kulang. And at that moment, I became a blessing to those people who were waiting patiently for the car to be filled. Ayos. It really was a lovely day afterall.

Work was fine. No hassles, no biggies, no nonsense, no worries. It went all smooth and cool, which is somehow freaky. I then hurried to attend my Monday combat workout. I arrived at the gym unusually early for the class. And so, I stayed at the lounge. Got myself a cup of coffee and some newspaper to pass time. Then came a 6 feet tall, dark, lean and handsome guy who somehow sat right in front of me. Well, I’m quite sure I’ve seen him there before because he is such a looker to be missed. Hehe. And then I went on with my reading, halfway through the paper, I noticed him looking – as I was turning the pages. Ok, inaamin ko, I was trying to check the site as well – HIM. Hahaha. And by some stroke of luck, we found ourselves looking at each other, gave a polite nod and smiled. *kilig*

I am not good at this looking on and off thing that I decided to go to my locker and check my phone. Retouch! Hahahaha. When I got back sa lounge, I was a bit disappointed to see that he’s also gone. Oh crap! Well, it happens. So I simply continued my reading. A few minutes later, I saw the guy and this time, he sat beside me. All 6 feet of him – right beside 5’8 of me. Yikes. We then continued to give each other that occasional polite smile. In my mind, I was silently praying for diving intervention. Lord, please let him be not deaf or mute – sana kausapin niya ako. And then it happened… Somebody heard my prayer!!!! After a while, all I can remember was him leaning towards me, trying to get something – a calling card perhaps? His cellphone? Was he now going to ask for my number and save it ASAP?.......

Then I saw a yellow paper, he handed it to me and I willingly took it. Baka number niya to, pero teka, I got alarmed. The paper is just too big of a size to hold his number – kahit lahat na ng number niya. And guess what, here’s what I actually got!!!!!

A menu.

Yes, tawa ka jan! I was all too assuming – afterall, it was supposed to be a lovely day right? Hahahaha. How silly of me to think that he’s into me. Hahahahaha. In other words, nag-feeling lang talaga ako. Hahaha. After workout, I went back to the office and told my good friend about the story. Nakakatawa. Hindi ako nahiya, if you’ve been reading my blogs, something like this already happened, this is not pain or shame I am feeling – it’s nostalgia! Hahahahaha. The irony of life tlga. It has such a weird way of making you feel great and then putting you back to where you really belong. Buti na lang talaga, I keep Bengay handy. It’s for times like this. Times when somebody, intentionally or unintentionally, bashes my ego! Wahahahahaha..


To the guy - pag nakita kita ulit, isusumbong na kita sa management ng Fitness First. Bawal yan sa loob ng club! - I am saying this with all bitterness! hahahaha.. Joke.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Surprising Survey

I got this survey text from one of my friends and decided to join in the fun. Hehe. Ang text ay isang mahiwagang survey. And according to the message at the end of the text, "send mo din sa iba, matutuwa ka sa sagot nila". And that's what I just did. Te-te-te-text-text-text-text-text... Ay Globe pala ako, pang TM pala to... Hahaha..

Ang tanong:

Kung iibahin mo ang position ko sa buhay mo, ano ako?

- kapatid
- bf/gf
- special friend
- Ex
- Asawa
- Pinsan
- Bestfriend
- Manliligaw
- Kabet
- Kakambal
- Crush
- Kaaway

At first, nakakatuwa nga ang mga sagot na nakuha ko. Kakambal, pinsan, BF, etc. Pero habang tumatagal, mejo nauulit lang ang isang word. KABET. And most of the people who answered are the ones that I kinda like. Hahaha. This got me thinking, mukha ba tlga akong pang-Kabit? Am I beginning to have this querida aura without me knowing it? Or baka naman pinag-t-tripan lang ako ng mga mokong na to. Hahaha. Na-bother daw talaga ako! Hmf.

Moral lesson, wag magpapatol sa mga mapanirang survey na yan. Nakaka-alter ng mood. =P

Friday, September 07, 2007

I've read this article soooo many times in the past and I still couldn't get over it! This is one of Coelho's best article/blog/online journal whatever you call it. He's really such a wise man incapable of writing something shallow. Hahaha..

Closing Cycles

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot forever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the
books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Closing Cycles

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are b
roken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.” Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

Sunday, September 02, 2007

The Bitch is Back

"It's Britney Bitch!"

Dropping it like it's HOT comes Britney's latest single - Gimme More!!!

After the whole shaving her head drama, the top-less pics as well as the bottomless one, comes a new track from her fifth and latest album schedule to hit the stores on November. Listen as she tries to give us more of her music with this latest track. Ne-Yo produced a couple of songs in this album (from what I read). I love her new song - I hope she gets to perform this coming VMAs!!!!!

The Song: Gimme More

(It's Britney, bitch)
(I see you, and I just wanna dance with you)

Everytime they turn the lights down
Just wanna go that extra mile for you
Public display of affection
Feel's like no one else in the room (The room)

We can get down like there's no one around
We'll keep on rockin' (We'll keep on rockin')
We'll keep on rockin' (Keep on rockin')

Cameras are flashing my way dirty dancing
They keep watchin' (They keep watchin')
Keep watchin
Feel's like the crowd is saying

Gimme gimme more
Gimme more
Gimme gimme more
Gimme gimme more
Gimme (Uh)
Gimme gimme more
Gimme gimme more
Gimme more
Gimme gimme more
Gimme gimme more
Gimme (Uh)
Gimme gimme more

Center of attention ('tention)
Even when they're up against the wall
You got me in a crazy position (Yeah)
If you're on a mission (Uh-uh)
You got my permission (Oh)

We can get down like there's no one around
We'll keep on rockin' (Keep on rockin')
We'll keep on rockin', rockin' (Uh-uh)

Cameras are flashing my way dirty dancing
They keep watchin' (Wait)
Keep watchin
(Feel's like the crowd is saying)

Gimme gimme more
Gimme more
Gimme gimme more
Gimme gimme more

Gimme (Uh)
Gimme gimme more
Gimme gimme more
Gimme more
Gimme gimme more
Gimme gimme more
Gimme (Uh)
Gimme gimme more

(I just can't control myself, oh)
(They want more? Well I'll give'em more, oh!)

Gimme gimme more
Gimme more
Gimme gimme more (Gimme more)
Gimme gimme more
Gimme (Uh)
Gimme gimme more (Ooh)
Gimme gimme more
Gimme more
Gimme gimme more
Gimme gimme more (Gimme more, oh yeah)
Gimme (Uh)
Gimme gimme more

Ohh, gimme more, gimme more (More)
Gimme more, gimme more baby
I just wanna more

Gimme gimme
Gimme gimme more
Gimme gimme
Gimme (Ooh)
Gimme gimme more
Gimme gimme
Gimme gimme more
Gimme gimme
Gimme (Ooh)
Gimme gimme

Bet you didn't see this one coming
The incredible Lygo
The lengendary Miss Britney Spears, haha
And the unstoppable Danja
Ha, you gonna have to remove me
Cause I ain't goin' no where, haha

Friday, August 31, 2007

I Heart Inday

After Ederlyn, a series of text messages have been circulating the bored-driven psychotic individuals! Hahaha. And this time, INDAY is the star. Taking it from life’s most ironic circumstance, INDAY being your not so ordinary house helper/yaya/maid or whatever you call it - who's gifted with so much vocubulary! She talks to us in a very profound manner in which I myself at times could not comprehend. Hahaha. Mataray si Inday!!!! Daig pa ang call center agents pati na ang spokesperson sa Malacanang. Pero do we really have to compare INDAY and EDERLYN??? We asked and they answered;

Inday: there is no point of comparison. i am just a helper, an ordinary parlance, a person whose faculty is edged only in the four conrners of this sumptuous dwelling.. ederlyn: do not underestimate my capacity to do work-ENERGY!


Here are some of the popular Inday quotes I gathered! Enjoy reading and be amazed!!!

"don't limit my capacity in the 4 corners of this luxurious abode. expose me to the real challenges of the outside world. i want to grow as an individual with dynamic experiences."

-inday, nagrereklamo kase ayaw sya isama sa enchanted kingdom.

"i pity u for u have degraded your very own pride and dignity by resorting to this despicable behavior just for the ssake of having something to feed your fetish appetite for wealth and i hope that one day you'll be rational enough to realize that you should not use other humans as means in the attainment of your ends. as what the great philosopher kant uttered, "treat a man as an end in himself."

- sagot ni inday sa dugu-dugu gang na tumawag sa bahay ng amo niya.

"sometimes, people choose to leave not because of selfish reasons but because they just know that things will get worse if they stay. leaving can be a tough act and it's harder when people can't understand you for doing so...."

-comment ni inday sa pag-alis ni angel locsin sa gma

"In my opinion, it is just for the legislature to hear that actual controversy. Every Filipino deserves the right to information as provided for in our Constitution. We need to know whether or not the president rigged down the prior election which can be deciphered by that alleged wire-tapped conversation of the president and that former comelec commissioner gar-zil-ya-noe..."

- comment ni inday habang nanonood ng tv patrol. mapolitika din pala ang ate mo! Haha

"Please.. It is indeed reprehensible for us to have a carnal knowledge. If you be adamant to unlawfully intercalate your limb into my citadel of pleasure I would be legally responsible to allege this juncture to your spouse."

sa tagalog: "koya wag po. magsusumbong ako kay atih. – INDAY

"La vida no es una broma actualmente. El dinero es tan duro de pasar. Puede usted bajar el precio parci mi? Soy ya su comprador avido diario. Por favor?"

- Si Inday tumatawad sa merkado nang isinama siya ng amo sa Espanya.

" Listening to d nonsense sum1s life
is a pathetic way of entertainment..
it doesn't contribute 2 d good of society..
i hate character assassinators..!"

-INDAY nagrereklamo ng machismis sya ng kapitbahay.

"I must reiterate that this career requires hard work, dedication, attention to detail, and a caring disposition. However, with perseverance and my guidance as a senior member of the workforce, you shall surely succeed."

---Kausap ni Inday ang bago nyang kasamahan na katulong

" The consistency was fine. But u see, it seems that the increased amount of sodium chloride (NaCl) affected the taste drastically and those actions are irreversible. I do apoligize.. "

-INDAY nag e-explain kung baket maalat ang ulam

"bloody hell!!!! What the fuck did just land on my cutie top? I mean i've spended all day just to make myself look fabulous. I think ill have this eewy thing removed in a whip wham of time!"

--- reaction ni Inday nung matalsikan sya ng mantika habang nagluluto ng TILAPIA...

"Stop your raucous behavior, It is bound to result in property damages and if that happens there will be corresponding punishment inflected upon you!"

-- Inday, pinagbabawalan ang mga bata na wag maglikot!

"the oil normalizing series specifically designed for my oily skin not only works physically on the skin surface, but penetrates deep into the skin layers to normalize oil secretions, for a healthy and long lasting, shine free skin,,,"

- sabi ni inday habang nag papahid ng chin chan su,,

"it's 4 AM and I need to get off from bed. If I have to change the world and make it a better place, what perfect moment than to do it now. When you just sense the need to do things you love, it won't make you feel enslaved."

~ Inday, alas-kwatro ng umaga, kinakausap ang sarili bago bumangon sa kama.

"Nurture others with positive, truthful words, not words that hurt. It doesn't cost anything to do so. But mean what you say , and say what you mean. Do it everyday. This is one of the obvious qualities of the most beloved people. If you cannot be generous financially, at least be generous with your words."

--- yan ang cinabi ni INDAY nung di cia pinautang at pinagmumura pa ng amo nya.... ahaha

"It's absurd! It was never a fact that he will inflict a fight. I can only imagine how you can handle schizophrenic kids on this educational institution Revise your policies because it sucks!"

--- INDAY kasama si Junior sa Principal's office (tulala ang principal)

"Physical stress and excessive work may result to serious damage to ones body. it is therefore essential that once in while we take a break from our usual routine to replenish d lost energy we once had..."

- sabi ni INDAY sa amo nya nung humingi sa ng DAY OFF!

"I love sleep. Its the only time I float in nothingness. No sadness to consume me. No happiness to overwhelm me. No fear to overcome. No norms to conform to. A place ehere time is but a concept. Reality is bent and will is just waiting to happen. A place where everything's twisted and in it I find peace"

-inday after ng trabaho

Dear Sir/Madam,

Attached herewith is a list of proposed acquisition in line with my proposal to upgrade your household facilities. I have already made initial survey of current market prices. Note however that prices could vary depending on the prevailing exchange rate and aggregate supply and demand which we also monitor on an hourly basis.

--- si INDAY, nagpaalam para mamalengke!

Dear Mom,

Had it not been for the smelling salt, I must have collapsed moment ago. Junior has become a little monster to me. Remember the head accident he had? As if it wasn’t enough, he was summoned by the principal of his shabbily run academe. Oh, such an erudite bunch of baboons! I never thought being a governess can be such strenuous employ. Your daughter Inday

Dear Inday,

Walang hiya ka! Magpadala ka ng pera! Nasa ospital nanay mo, dumugo ang ilong kababasa ng pesteng sulat mo!