Sunday, May 13, 2007

Blog Sightings

Today, uninspired to actually write something about and bored to death, I once again did one of my favorite hobby, blog sighting. Hehe. While some blogs remained, uhm, simply blogs, there are those that really caught my super short attention span and made me think really hard and deep. Digging my innermost thoughts and my unrelenting emotions! Yaakkk.. Ang cheesy. Mush alert… Beep! Beep!

Read some of the most inspiring things I’ve read somewhere along the million sites over the internet. Hopefully, these words will make you fall, inspired, or simply blush – the way it did to me. Enjoy…

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...we don't look for love because it sucks to be alone watching movies...because it's pathetic to eat meals by yourself...because it's nice to cuddle up with someone on rainy days... we look for love because we want to be forgiven... forgiven for the sloppy way we dress...for the clumsy way we eat our meals...for bad hair days...for the plainness of ourselves... love is an act of forgiveness... that for all our imperfections, we are accepted and forgiven..


Vince says: Ang galing di ba? Nice way of putting things…

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you derserve to be inhaled as if you were
the air that he breathes subconsciously
he won't realize you are important until he suffocates
until he chokes from all that fake chemicals man-made
he'd be content with simply breathing
he won't crave for smokes, perfume or cologne
he just has to breathe...


and you don't have to try
you just have to be at your purest form
because you are naturally meant to help him live
and he is meant to make you feel needed
not just wanted
needed.

Vince says: When I read this poem, I started to blush – literally. Suddenly, I felt like crying. I am weird. Hahaha. This is really crazy! If somebody sends me something like this, I’ll probably faint sa sobrang sweetness. Hahaha..

Monday, May 07, 2007

Lost Beginnings



So you’re already done with the process and have gone through the so-called different stages of getting over your past. You’ve carefully picked up the pieces of your life, moved on and have already let go of all the excess baggage you may still have. Great isn’t it? What’s next then?

For the past couple of months, I have been out on dates - courtesy of my really supportive and equally fab friends. And while a number of these dates have made quite a good impression on both me and the other party, I am beginning to wonder, why am I still single at this very moment then? It’s not like I got dumped from all of those dates right? At the risk of sounding pompous, from what I can recall, I always get another call for date # 2 or even 3. What is it then?

I’ve carefully tried to remember the exact sequencing of events that had led to the demise of my so-called dating life. Every single detail revisited. I was contemplating of that very thought until it finally hit me. Houston, we have a problem!!! Or better yet, it is me who somehow has the problem. Perhaps I didn’t know how to fall in love!!! Ta-dah!!!!!

I tried to Google it just now as to what makes people fall, well not literally of course. And found thousands of ideas of how people fall for someone – physical, mental, emotional and all the other means. A wise man once told me that, falling for someone is not something that you plan to happen, it just happens and sometimes without you really knowing. But then again, somehow, in some way you will know, and that’s where the magic of love begins. Ok, so perhaps I haven’t met the right one yet or perhaps I already did and failed to notice. It seems like I’ve embraced single hood so much that I so forgot to pay attention to certain details or aspects that could’ve led me to fall for the person. The thing is, I honestly don’t know where to begin. Maybe some of you may have experienced this very same dilemma once or maybe twice or even more than that in your twenty or thirty something life. It is not about picking up the pieces back; it’s about making peace with your past, being happy at present and somehow, wondering how to fall in love next.

So where do I begin then? After having gone through all those things about love and relationships in the past. After having been able to experience the best kind of love (so far!) or romance, should I go for something that is of lesser value, uhm say just “better”? Or should I simply change the way I see things and look at my past as something better and hope for more in the future? After all, the best is yet to come. Once you’ve experienced the fall, once you’ve glimpse the face of love, once you’ve shared so much of yourself to one person and failed - with so many memories, both good and bad, where do you actually begin once you’ve been in love?

Maybe just like that classic song, I will try to forget that I ever did fall, or at least pretend that I really did not - ever. I don't know. I guess I never will until such time that I get to fall for someone once again. Hehehe. Today, I am trying to make sense of what was and what will be as far as my love life is concerned. All I can say is that at this very moment, I am generally happy, with the way things are with in life. As a matter of fact, the idea of growing old alone doesn’t really scare me a bit. Maybe, I’ve entertained the idea a couple of times in the past, over and over again, till I become sick to my stomach. And then somehow I have learned to live with it. I’m actually more afraid of ending up with the wrong guy than being alone for the rest of my life! Hahaha. There’s nothing lonelier than being with the wrong guy as Ally Mcbeal have put it. Maybe soon, I will fall for someone or maybe not. But until then, I guess, I’ll just keep on rocking!

p.s.
oh btw, I haven't really given up on true love alright? hahahaha..

"The idea that when people come together, they stay together. I have to take that with me when I'm going to bed at night, Even if I'm going to bed alone." - Ally McBeal

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Blogthings are FUN...
hahaha. For those of you who have nothing better to do, visit www.blogthings.com and answer all their quizzes to find out more about yourself. Happy answering..


You Are a Chocolate Martini

You're an elegant drunk, who only likes the best bars and the most expensive drinks.
A bit of a cheapskate, you're likely to mooch ten dollar drinks off both friends and strangers.

You should never: Drink and dash. You're gonna get caught leaving someone with the tab!

Your ideal party: A posh celebrity party you crash, with an open bar.

Your drinking soulmates: those with a Classic Martini personality

Your drinking rivals: those with a Blueberry Martini personality