“A person’s career is a very personal choice.
It reflects his personality, creativity, interests and goals. “
At the start of the week, a good friend of mine told me about a possible job opening somewhere. Not that this is something new to me, in fact, I applied for this very position exactly a year ago and was actually offered the very same job. Under certain circumstances, I declined . But knowing how I really liked the job – in fact it was something that I wanted to try doing- it didn’t leave my mind. I was constantly thinking if I did the right choice for turning it down.
Now, hearing that the very same job will soon be up for grabs, it got me thinking if I should re-apply. After all, maybe this is a sign – that the job is really for me! Like what are the odds of you getting a second chance on fate? Hahaha. Opportunities come but once in a blue moon, but if it comes back right at your doorstep – you will then be toooooo stupid to let it pass again.
I remember having this conversation with another friend about this. He said and I quote, “sometimes, when you find something that you really wanted to do or say try, you have to make certain sacrifices. Salary, job title, good office, friends you’ve made along the way, etc. Just for you to be able to fulfill that dream. You just have to be open to the idea that you have to start somewhere. You don’t normally get everything you wished for”. I remembered every word he said back then and it did made me realize that perhaps I could and should make a little sacrifice here and there to get what I really want.
And then a funny thing happened. One (former) employee of this very company that I am aiming for heard about my plans. She willingly shared her “horror” stories about the company and their culture, through a common friend. Her advice – think twice, thrice, or more hanggang magsawa ka sa kakaisip at ayaw mo na lang din ituloy. Hahaha. Funny. While I carefully listened to her stories – which are by the way valid, I can’t help but be influenced by the fact that experience is far better than intuition. And that started the whole confusion scenario.
While it is true that at times, we can and have to learn from the experiences of others to avoid making the same mistakes – ang maniwala nga ba sa sabi sabi, walang tiwala sa sarili? Right now, I still want the job. And I am somehow willing to take the risk. But having known the facts and how crappy things are, am I simply being stubborn for still wanting to pursue it? Do I simply find it challenging? Or is it my change-the-culture demeanor that makes me still want to go for it? Or baka nadadala lang ako sa mga resignation sa office? Hahaha. I am confused – which may lead to stress! Help!!!!
Your opinions/thoughts will be very much appreciated.