In a matter of hours (Manila time), we will once again begin another year. And sa kabila ng lakas ng ingay at putukan sa labas, I wanted to end the year right by reflecting on the things that happened in ‘08. But of course, I didn’t want this entry to be all about ‘Me’ again. Hahaha. That would be too much right? Besides, there are far more juicier things to discuss than to read about my ongoing battle with split-ends. Damn, I really need a good haircut. Sheeessshhh..
Anyhoo… As I was bummin’ around the house earlier today. I once again caught the movie “One More Chance” sa Cinema One. And realized, that perhaps this was the year of breakups - among my good good and not-so-quite good friends. Ahhhh love… The only rational and irrational feeling in this world that bring us both extreme joy and sadness at the same time.
So I guess, this is for the people who just lost somebody…. Wag na ninyong kantahin… This is supposed to be a lil melodramatic entry. Anu baaaa.
I hate endings. And hearing stories about endings. But these are quite inevitable lately as I learned and begin to hear how some friends struggle their own personal battles, about the different endings in their life. As stories began to unravel, I was amazed at how automatic our responses had been. And although, I was with different groups of people each time – I’ve been hearing the same thing over and over again. “Things will get better” daw. Hearing this over and over again, made me want to really believe that. But then again, as always, ayoko. Makapangontra lang. =)
The pain of a heartbreak is like a rite of passage. Lahat ata tayo nakaka-experience na niyan, one way or another. And for all of us who’ve gone through that phase, can you really, honestly tell me, that indeed things got better? Or didn’t we just bury the memories deep deep down our darkest thoughts where we can’t reach and find them easily?
So after a breakup, how does one get on with his or her own life and finally start moving on? Some say its about acceptance of the things that did and did not happen. Some say its about forgiveness, of your own shortcomings as well as the other person’s. Its one hellofva lot of things that somehow don’t make sense at first but will sure do when you get the chance to look back. Different strokes for different broken hearted individuals. Though one thing is for sure, clinging to that past is a sure fire way of not allowing yourself to experience a more exciting future.
So, like I said, this is for the people who just lost somebody. Para sa mga nang-iwan at mga iniwanan. If you are the one that left, well by all means you left for a reason so stop holding on to the past. And if you are the one that is left behind, never allow the person who left you to take away your capacity to actually enjoy your own life and eventually love again. Just because, he/she doesn’t love you, doesn’t mean you have to stop loving your own self.
And as we bid 2008 a nice goodbye, I hope you’ll all finally come to terms with your own battles and allow yourself to replace those old thoughts with even better memories – be it with your families, friends or in the arms of another love. May you all be at least fine in 2009. (Sorry for the rhyme thing – I can’t help it)
Happy New Year Bitches of the World!!!!
Fab Fierce!!!!! Rawrrrr!!!!