"You don't know what you have until its gone".
I've always believed in that cliche and I feel like there really is some truth to that uhm, saying. And yet, for some strange and selfish reasons, I take my chances, complicate and push things to the limit, and then realize it is too late. Yes, I believed in that cliche, but I never said I actually lived by that principle. Not until now.
You see, there's something about being made aware of the fact that soon, it is indeed all gonna be over, before it actually stops. All of a sudden, you change your perspective of how things are and should be. You want everything to be perfect - or at least right. You become thankful of every opportunity, time and effort. There is that urge to make sure he knows it - every single freakin' time. You become more appreciative. You let go of yourself completely and let all of your inhibitions float. You seize every moment. You savor it - with much pride and joy - knowing that this moment may never happen again. Which make every touch, every kiss, every waking moment together feel magical. Just like in the movies.
It has only been barely three months. And yet I feel like I've experienced an immense growth in the past 87 days far more than I've had in the past uhm, three decades. Clearly, I am a changed man. Experience tells me that you really don't know what you have until its gone. It is true in every sense of the word. From now on, I will live my life with that cliche in mind. I will make sure to let it guide me through every important decisions that I will have to eventually make. And that this time around, I will never ever let any moment pass me by and go unnoticed.
Ganun pala yon,